friendship

Ok, it has been a longgggggggggg time since my last blog. The reasons for this are numerous, and will at some point be covered in a blog. If you are curious though, it realates to work and life. I have had so much to do, so much to try and help organize(yes honey I know you have had alot more), but between work and wedding plans I have had an awakening, and this blog will be on that.

It seems very appropiate today, well over this period as I guess there is another example which we celebrate. So, friends, what are they? If you look it up, it means a person whom one knows well and likes;supporter. Interesting view. Why do you trust these people? If you know them well, and like them, does that mean you would do anything for them? I guess different people see this in different ways.
For me, if I am a friend, it means I would do anything for this person, givc them a shoulder to cry on if it is needed, support them for any troubles, support them through any challenges, support them through the adventures of life, be them good or bad. If a friend needs money I will try and give it to them, if they need someone to talk to I will make sure I am there no matter what. If they have a big day, I want to be there and celebrate with them.

I have found over the last few months, organizing our wedding that my views aren't normal, or so it seems. When I needed an ear, someone to talk to most of my friends have been there for me, but some haven't. I assumed they were busy, life goes on, no problem. Hey I will give them 6 months warning for our wedding, so they will be there. Sadly not true. How many times have I heard, argh sorry I can't afford it? or I can't get the time off? Surely these are good reasons, are they not? Well honestly, to me, NO. I would go to there wedding anywhere in Europe. I have a house,bills etc, and a shit income. The majority of my "friends" still live at home, so pay "rent", thats it. The few that are home owners have good jobs, and earn good money.. so really when they say " I can't afford it", what they really mean is "I can't be fucked". I have really found out who my friends are recently, and after I am married, and living my dream life with the lady I love with all my heart, the friends that let me down, well do I need these leeches any more? Honestly NO. I only need Chiara in my life, this is something I have learnt as of late. She makes me happy, she is always there for me, and we both are so happy together anything else is just a bonus. I think when my life is complete, which is will be soon, I will only care about my Chiara, our families, and my real friends. All the others will mean nothing to me, as clearly I mean to them. I am devastated one of the people I thought was one of my best friends is going to be in this list, but I have seen he clearly isn't one of my best friends, so it is no big loss.

I am not comparing these people to Judas, and myself to Jesus, not even close, but, that is why I felt it was appropiate to write it now. Jesus was a far better person than me, and even though he knew he was going to be betrayed he just continued on with his lfe. I am not that strong, I need true friends not pretend friends. I wonder if this makes any sense to anyone, am I babbling now? It is getting late, should go, ciao tutti